Are you guys making New Year's Resolutions?
Part of me wants to and the other part of me feels so dang tired I don't know that I want to set myself up for that. I love the idea of setting and keeping goals. But I also tend to do that naturally. My natural inclination is to work over relax and maybe my goal for 2017 should just be to learn to slow down, be mindful, enjoy my family, practice gratitude? Forget about business goals and house goals and having x amount of our mortgage paid off and maybe just be nicer to myself? I always struggle with that line--- of when I should be content with all I have and have done and where I should push myself harder. The difference between contentment and complacency has always eluded me.
One thing I know is that we pushed ourselves plenty hard in December. Our jewelry business exploded in preparation for Christmas. We are so so so so so grateful. But I think this 7 1/2 month pregnant woman went too hard with business, school, Christmas preparations, etc. The past week I feel like I have been in a total stupor. My body is tired and achy. My first pregnancy felt like such a breeze and this one has been significantly harder. IS THIS BECAUSE I'M 30 NOW?!? I can't go up the stairs without huffing and puffing and all I want to do is take baths and lie down and maybe curl up for another nap. I had big nesting goals for Christmas break. Clean out the fridge! Organize pantry! Get June's big girl bed set up! Start working on nursery! About the only thing I've gotten done is loved and cuddled my family but maybe that's all my goals should have been anyway?
That's not to say we haven't done ANYTHING. We managed a sledding day. (And by "day" I mean probably 45 minutes. That's all it takes to get your fill!) And we went swimming at the rec center. There were a lot of ten year old boys with complete lack of spacial awareness bumping into my very pregnant belly so that didn't last too long either. But we did it!
Oh- and I've been doing something bordering on productive. It's productive in theory at least, but not in execution. We have been attempting potty training the last three days. I hesitate to even mention it because last time we attempted potty training in the summer I mentioned it and received an onslaught of unwanted advice and criticism. Oh, internet how I love thee, let me count the ways. Potty training feels like one of those things that maybe you should only mention once you've mastered it? But then I think that's stupid. Why hide the struggle of it? Because other people struggle too and this should be a safe space to struggle together. So here it is. WE'RE STRUGGLING WITH POTTY TRAINING! Do I give up again? Wait another 6 months? Keep pushing? So many people have told me that when the child is ready the potty training is easy. Maybe I've got the worst read on my daughter ever, but I swear she is ready! She's 2 1/2 years old and shows so much interest in the potty. She follows Greg and I around when we go to the bathroom. (TMI!) She tells us as soon as she goes pee or poo. She tries to change her own diaper because she hates being dirty. She changes her doll's diaper. She takes her froggy to the potty. But when it comes down to the actual execution of her going in the toilet--- there's some kind of disconnect. Yesterday she woke up from her nap with a dry diaper. I knew this was a golden opportunity. I sat her on the toilet for 45 minutes. I turned the water on. I gave her juice. She knew she was supposed to go. She knew she was supposed to go. And what's more- I knew she needed to go. She wouldn't! She sat there and held it! And within five minutes of her getting off that toilet, she peed right through her big girl undies and then declared "big girl undies wet" and went over and sat on the toilet. A little late there, champ.
Greg thinks she's just stubborn and has decided she isn't going to do it right now and it's not worth the power struggle. He's probably right but it's hard for me to accept that she just won't be potty trained when she's perfectly capable of it. But June has proved her stubbornness to us before. Earlier this year we worked for probably 4 or 5 months to get June to say please. She just wouldn't do it. She'd be so dang stubborn about it and it drove us absolutely bonkers. There wasn't any candy, any toy in the world that could make that girl say please. And then one day she just decided, hey I guess I'll say please now. And she said it. Easily, happily, willingly. And now she always says it. So do I just have to wait until she makes up her mind that she's going to go potty? Am I going to be waiting until she's 16? AND SINCE WHEN WAS A TWO YEAR OLD RUNNING THIS HOUSE HOLD!?!
I woke up this morning feeling very stressed and frustrated about the potty situation and writing this all out has given me, if nothing else, a little peace of mind. How does writing do that? Thanks for letting me dump my potty woes here. And I'd love to hear what you guys think I should do- wait for a few more months and then try again with June (BUT PLEASE I DON'T WANT TWO IN DIAPERS AT THE SAME TIME!) or keep pushing? And if your child was potty trained at 18 months that is so great and I'm so happy for you but this might not be the best time and place to let me know that. ;) I'm a fragile potty woman right now.
P.S. Tomorrow is the last day for this important campaign that I've been working on. It always makes me sad how easy it is to get people to click a link for shoes but how tough it is to get people to click on the stuff that really matters. THIS IS THE STUFF THAT REALLY MATTERS.