We're on the home stretch here. Three weeks to go.
My mood has been doing this thing lately. It goes: get this baby out of me now, please keep the baby in forever, get this baby out of me now, please keep the baby in forever, get this baby ouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut! It's a lot of fun!
Greg asked me the other day, "Are you ready to not be pregnant anymore?" I replied, "Yes. But then I have a baby. And I'm more scared of the baby then I am of being pregnant."
I mean, don't get me wrong. I'm totally stoked to be a mom. And I'm not some kind of a freak show- I think being nine months pregnant is just as annoying as the next nine month pregnant lady. My back aches, my stretched out skin kills, I'm exhausted, nothing nothing nothing fits, and I waddle like a penguin. BUT. Here's the deal. Pregnancy is a beast I know. It has been tamed. I understand what I'm dealing with.
But a baby? Better the devil you know than the devil you don't, I say.
I don't know what my child is going to be like. I don't know if she'll be fussy and colicky and cry dawn to dusk. I don't know if she'll have major blow outs at the most inconvenient time possible. I don't know if she'll up and decide she doesn't like my milk. I don't know if she's going to be the type that enjoys a great party at 3 in the am, and while I have had my share of great 3 am parties, I'm kind of over them now. So yes, I'm excited, but I also don't mind these lazy days of summer, laying around with my big belly, going to the pool to cool off, sleeping in because I can. No. I do not mind.
A lot of people ask me if we are "ready". The answer is no. Not in the least bit.
We do not have:
A car seat
A diaper bag (or a diaper, for that matter!)
A room for baby to sleep in
A birth plan (Birth plan is basically this: epidural please!)
A breast pump
We have not:
Taken any kind of birthing class.
Moved into our home that was supposed to be done on July 5th. (The new estimated finishing time for house is the weekend of July 25th. Well, I'll be, baby is due on July 25th! Couldn't have worked out more perfectly, right?)
Decided on a color theme for her nursery. I mean, that's kind of hard when there's no nursery, right?
We DO have:
A crib that is sitting in pieces in our very hot garage, so generously given to us by my sister. I want to paint it white, but am completely lacking the motivation so it sits on.
A $20 bassinet I got from a garage sale.
A bunch of shoes that are merely for looks- much too small for the baby to wear when she can actually walk. (I also got these from a garage sale.)
A very random assortment of sizes and styles of clothes- most from garage sales.
A high chair- also from my sister.
A baby snow suit. Because it's July...
A baby life jacket. In case we feel like throwing our newborn into the lake.
As you can see, we have a lot of stuff we don't really need, and not much of the things we do need. Basically I went to a garage sale a week ago and got a bunch of random stuff, and then my sister who is moving and done having kids let me raid her attic. Hence, the eclectic mix of stuff. But still, it's something! Progress, people!
I try to be a minimalist and not get into too much "stuff", but it's so hard to know what you really need and what is just a bunch of extra stuff. You know? I mean, a woman could go stark raving mad trying to get everything in the world for baby- I just want the basics. Tell me now- what are the baby things you really NEED?
Obviously I have no clue what I'm doing, but these are the things that I think I absolutely need. And I'd like some advice and help. Seriously. I'm a mess.
My Baby "Essentials"
Carseat/ Stroller: I'm all about scoring a great deal, but I don't quite dare to get a car seat or stroller at a garage sale, so I suppose that's a purchase that needs to be made soon. But why the endless options!? You look at the strollers in Target for three minutes and it's enough to stress out the most sane of women. I just want a stroller, people. (Maybe some kind of carseat/ stroller combo... Is that too much to ask for? Is it possible to get this for under $200?)
Diaper bags: I have been tempted the last couple of weeks to fork over the money for this bad boy. I love it in the green/yellow. But can I really justify $150+ on a DIAPER BAG?! I love, though, that it doesn't look too diaperbaggy- more like a big purse. And every person I have ever talked to about getting a petunia picklebottom diaper bag has said that the bags are worth their weight in gold. But seriously? $165 for a diaper bag?!? Anyone out there who has had a regular diaper bag and a "premium" diaper bag want to chime in- is it worth it to pay the extra?
Breast pump: Even typing that makes me feel like some kind of milk machine. I think I need one. I have no idea how they work. I looked at a breast pump in the store and it stressed me out and made me feel like any femininity I've ever had had booked it out the door. Also, Bottles. Why are these so confusing? Are there certain bottles that go with breast pumps and certain bottles for formula? I understand very little.
Also, if you want to chime in on your favorite girl name, now would be the time. Greg and I are at a total standstill. I mean, a name isn't necessary, right?